Today I had to fill out my first form indicating my new age – 40. It was a bit of a shock. I don’t feel 40. I don’t really “look” 40. I definitely don’t feel like I have life all figured out like you always thought you would at 40. But somehow, here I am, 40.

But at 40, I do think I’m starting to figure out what I want. I have a wonderful husband, a beautiful 3 year old boy (almost 4), a lovely house that I’m having fun slowly decorating, and while I do have an autonomic dysfunction (more on that later), all in all my health is very good. So I can’t really complain.

But I’ve always felt like something was askew. Something was missing. I always felt like I was searching for something that I just couldn’t put my finger on. And I think (I hope), I found it.

So now I’m trying to spread my wings in my new career. There have been some hiccups, but I am keeping a positive heart and mind that it’s all headed in the right direction.

Plus, I’m starting to find some peace with my lifelong battle with anxiety. I found a great counselor who is leading me down a path I never saw coming, but I think is right on for some healing and calmness.

I love to write – I love to share my thoughts – and I love to help others. So this blog will encompass on that in my life – my health, my career, my family life, and my recovery from anxiety. You will find fitness posts (my love of fitness is beyond real), probably some recipes and nutrition, a lot of calming techniques, and just some fun accounts of my crazy life at 40.